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1.5 years after surgery and I’m still losing. I went through a period where my horrible eating habits came back. After about 12 months, all the ‘restrictive’ feelings that helped me lose weight seemed to disappear and I could eat anything I wanted. So, I found that’s exactly what I was doing. that’s when I started stalling really really badly.

I’ve gone through quite a few life altering changes during this time. My husband was laid off, our relationship has suffered because of it. We’re both at fault with many things, but certain things can’t be ‘worked out’. Especially if you’ve tried to work them out for years before. Regardless, a lot of my fallback into bad eating habits coincided with these events. I would continue to eat after feeling full, I would eat horrible quick foods like fast food, pizza, and sodium loaded packaged foods. But now, over the past few weeks, I have found something inside me that doesn’t want all that trash. I stop eating at the first feeling of fullness and I have steadily lost 8 pounds in the last few weeks. I eat meals that I cook myself. They may not be the best of meals, but I cook them and know what’s in them. Being on an extremely tight budget takes a lot of options out of the picture, but I am now finding that even the poorest of people can do small things to try to eat right.

I started a new week this week. One without a burden over my head, and eggshells under my feet.